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21 November 2009 @ 09:59 pm

Title: When?

Author: nihonjin_tensai

Pairing: YunJae, JaeMin (brotherly/motherly love)

Length: Drabble

Genre: Angst(fail. i’m sorry.)

Disclaimer: not mine. Inspired by JaeChunSu’s appearance on Mnet today (091121)

A/N: Taken from JaeChunSu’s appearance on Mnet (click here). Jaejoong’s POV. What happened afterwards. It had an overwhelming impact on me, I had to write. What a plot bunny.


He quickened his pace towards the stage crew. He headed towards the door and left the other two members without telling them. There, he cried his heart out till he could feel his eyes sting in dryness.

Tears were running out.

He continued to cry out, his breaths shortening, his chest clenching, his stomach churning, his knees weakening; all without feeling the wetness pool in the corners of his eyes.

The loud rapping on the door behind him were slowly being drowned by the choked sobs—ones that he has been suppressing within himself for several months already—that became louder each time his last statement rang in his head.

I would just like to tell the two people who might be watching this right now that I love them.”

He would give everything for all of it to end. He would suffer for them just so it could end. It was tearing him apart; his inability to care for them without anxiety and that familiar tightening in his chest.

When will he ever stop crying?

He was finally breaking down and no one knew about it—but himself.


A/N: I’m so sorry! *bricks self* I just had to write this! Or I wouldn’t stop crying! T.T Comments please?

YunJaeyuki_3 on November 21st, 2009 02:15 pm (UTC)

OMG I watched it and I cried soooo hard T_T
Seeing joongie's face so hurt .. His fighting to hold back his tears .. His words that were stuck in his mouth .. I was sooooo sure that he wanted to say a lot of things .. But then he would cry T_T

I am ready to kill everyone who said that JaeChunSu are selfish .. Because after seeing them here I just hop everything will end soon and they will be back as 5 .. Because clearly they looked lost on stage just the three of them

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are_lynnare_lynn on November 21st, 2009 03:01 pm (UTC)
i also watch them.. jae face show so much hurt..
are_lynnare_lynn on November 21st, 2009 03:02 pm (UTC)
jae hand was shaking
steffiluvlifesteffiluvlife on November 21st, 2009 03:23 pm (UTC)
i think you made me cry harder, but that just goes to show how much these boys are loved, and we can tell from their sincerity, i just really hope that they're truly not divided over this: homin vs jaechunsu.
i try to be postiive, but we'll never know
herakleionherakleion on November 21st, 2009 03:27 pm (UTC)
They attended MAMA for several good reasons:
- to receive the award
- to say thank you to their fans for all the support
- to say that the award belong to 5 members
- to say that they won't break up
- to say that they will work harder as five not only as three
- to say that how much they miss their beloved friend (HoMin).
Jae's speech really made me cried.
galgal79galgal79 on November 21st, 2009 03:57 pm (UTC)
JaeChuSu, Don't be sad. HoMin will be back with you soon.
suju_shinkisuju_shinki on November 21st, 2009 04:27 pm (UTC)
always keep the faith ^^
Uchiha Caroline: YunJae - Bring the coloruchihacarol on November 21st, 2009 05:38 pm (UTC)
man... T.T
joongie must be really hurt >.<
how SME dare to hurt yunnie's boojae? ò.ó
hope that everything will end good and soon >.
thetaintedbladethetaintedblade on November 21st, 2009 09:01 pm (UTC)
gah you made me cry again.
i already bawled my eyes out watching their appearance...and jaejoongie who was trying so hard NOT TO CRY
it killed me even more because i had a feeling he was going to cry for MAMAs...
claud_ina666: adorkable yunjaeclaud_ina666 on November 22nd, 2009 01:09 am (UTC)
this just made me cry harder...

my eyes started tearing up when chun said it was the first time he yearned to perform on stage, then jae made it drop when he said he loved those two friends...

like i said in youtube, i think it wasn't right for sm to boycott MAMA because it should be about pleasing the fans and not getting an award (although an award is nice) and they should appreciate fans and their artists more because if not for them, they wouldn't be the company they are now...
kiyazawakiyazawa on November 22nd, 2009 07:05 am (UTC)
i cried for this whole morning..
and this make it worse...
*cries again*
thank you for writing this....
i know it hurts us alot....
dilovesyunjaedilovesyunjae on November 23rd, 2009 03:29 am (UTC)
omg, i was trying hard not to sob..but jae's face, i've NEVER seen him with that kind of expression before. DBSK HWAITING!!!
ko_bandsko_bands on November 29th, 2009 12:36 pm (UTC)

I've never seen Jae with such a sad and lost face before. Not even in his dramas.

But now I am sure that they will try their hardest to stay together. Chun even said that they will try to be big all over the world and not break up. The thing is, I've always seen the jaechunsu as the three hat follow the other two. Yun has always been the one that keeps jae in check, and Min has always been the one completeing the yoosumin cuteness. There has always been one touch. There's always been 2uminsu complaining that Jae doesn't cook enough and there's always been Yunjae--a friendship envied all over the world. But these three that go with the flow while the other two lead them, are not as strong as the homin. they have reached their limits.

But they are learning to stay stronger. And HoMin are learning to be softer.